His Faithfulness

Wanted to hop on here and share some heart tugs + life updates!

I am very project motivated, but I have avoided setting my own goals at all costs. When someone else would set them for me, I usually surpassed their expectations, but when I would set a goals for myself, I’d play it safe, I’d set myself up for success because I didn’t want to be responsible for my own failures. If I couldn’t do something within the parameters I had chosen, I would beat myself up hardcore. I didn’t want to set myself up for unmet expectations or the gut wrenching disappointment in myself (there’s that lifelong struggle with self worth, yet again).
I think a lot of it is the struggle with human nature and wanting to be in control. It was the safety net protecting me from failing. The safety net for me not having to rely on someone else, for me not having to fully rely on the Father’s faithfulness.
While all my human tendencies are screaming “don’t, you will fail,”
my heart hears only of His promise, His goodness, His faithfulness, + His heart.
So here goes nothing.
Here is my first big goal.
Publicly proclaimed + all. (my insides are still screaming)

BIG GOAL:
After we got some fire under our tails and began “asking” people to join our ministry, the Lord has provided us with 25% of the monthly pledges in JUST ONE MONTH, with JUST SIX PARTNERS!! (Along with 66% of start up costs raised in just two months!)
Yall, that is God’s faithfulness. That is with people giving BIG to this ministry. That is people trusting that the Lord will provide for them. And we are trusting that He will provide for us!

If we were to continue to raise 25% of the monthly pledges, each month, we would be fully funded in just 4 four months! That would have us fully funded by late April.
So yall, THAT IS OUR GOAL + PRAYER.
That the Father would continue to raise 25% of our monthly goal, each month, for the next three months. That we would have all monthly pledges needed for our annual budget, by the end of April.

We are already on our way to reaching the next 25% by the middle of February!

We want to clarify how this goal must be met.
Many people have said “we want to give!!” but I have been told that people are a little confused on WHEN to give.
GIVING NOW is the only way for us to reach this goal!
We have to have you in the system, by automatic withdrawal, or by giving a monthly check to the church with “Rwanda Missions” in the memo (along with telling one of us) before your monthly donation can be added to the percentage of our goal.
Through the online donation page, donors can set up automatic withdrawal and can also choose the duration.
Say there is a donor who wants to give $100 a month, for two years. The donor would go online today and set an automatic withdrawal for $100 a month, on the 23rd of each month, until January 23, 2021. This would be a two year partnership. Even though the donor would be giving before we leave, the giving would only last two years from when they first gave.
ALL MONTHLY DONATIONS will sit in an account until we leave for Rwanda. Once we leave for Rwanda, our monthly budget will be distributed to us. We are responsible for keeping track of our budget + all of our spending.
ALL ONE TIME GIFTS will also sit in an account until we buy plane tickets, schedule cross cultural training, etc.

To reach that goal, we need your help! We want to share our hearts and our calling with you. We don’t want you to miss out on being apart of God’s heart for Rwanda.
Give me a call, let’s grab coffee! (Seriously yall)

Preparation:
We are currently taking a course in Lynchburg called “Perspectives”. It is 15 weeks of lectures, readings, writings, and reflections all rooted in God’s ultimate purpose for the world, relating to biblical text.

Prayers:
-Equipping of our souls + preparation of our hearts
-Deep community while here –> carrying over into Rwanda
-Joyful + faithful givers
-Stay on top of the course load with the Perspectives class
-Preparation of the hearts of the people we will do life with in Rwanda

God has been so so kind to us in this journey.
So so faithful.
You all have been an abundant blessing to us.
We continually see God’s promise to Abraham come to fruition.
“I will bless you, so that you to be a blessing.”
Through you, we have the honor of blessing the people of Rwanda.

We are forever thankful for your heart for Him.

Blessings,
Kathryn

Finding Happiness

From a young age, we are taught that life is better when we’re older.

..when you get to have ice cream for breakfast..
..when you get to stay up past your bedtime..
..when you’re allowed to see that movie..
..when summer comes..
..when you get to go to high school..
..when you get your first car..
..when you get your drivers license..
..when you go on your first date..
..when you have your first kiss..
..when you get to go to the beach with your best friend..
..when you get loads of likes on instagram..
..when you graduate high school..
..when you move out of your parents house..
..when you have your own apartment..
..when you can have an adult beverage..
..when you get an awesome internship..
..when you go to grad school..
..when you work a 9-5..
..when you fall in love..
..when you get engaged..
..when you get married..
..when you have 2.5 kids
& a golden retriever..
..when you buy a big house
with a white picket fence..
..when you make a lot of money..
..when you buy a nice car..
..when you travel the world..
..when you retire
& move to the beach..

Then what?
Is that where you find life?
Is that where you find death?
Is that where you find happiness?

Society has robbed us of the here and now. Society has taught us to wish our entire life away, because “life is better when you have it all”, when you finally achieve the “American Dream.”

When you have all the “stuff” you could ever want, but constantly crave more.
When you have that fancy piece of paper on the wall proclaiming you are “worthy”.
When you’re drowning in student debt because of that fancy piece of paper.
When you have kids because it’s what all your friends are doing.
When you scroll through social media full of envy of other peoples lives.
Or bodies.
Or relationship status.
Or stuff. Back to stuff again.
When you finally buy that expensive car JUST to impress your friends.
When you buy that house in that neighborhood because you want to be in the “in” crowd.
When you work a job you hate, to spend more money on stuff, that you don’t need, but that makes you look good.
Oh yeah, more stuff.

Is that where we find happiness?
Is that really what society has come to?
Wishing our lives away until the next phase, to when we have more “stuff” to impress the people we call “friends”, because THAT is totally where we will find happiness.
Is that what life is about?

No.
No.
& no.

Praise God.

To date, I have spent most of my life wishing time away, until now.
I think I have finally grasped that life is always better in God’s hand, in His timing, and with that my joy is abounding.
If I were to have had it my way when ten years ago, even five years ago, my life would look very different.
But today, I wouldn’t change one single thing about it.
I am finally present.
I am finally free from what I thought I needed my life to look like.
& don’t get me wrong, as easy as it would be to wish this season away and be on to the next, for the first time in my life, I am not. When the next season comes, I will welcome it with wide open arms. But for now, I am here. Growing in ways I never would have been able to if I wasn’t right where I am right now.
I am learning to be vulnerable, to be fully content where God has me, to be imperfect, to pray radically, to fully trust that my life is in His hands, to bring Him glory where ever He has me, and to know with all my heart, that He is always good.

Love you all deeply,
Kathryn

First Donation

Hey yall!

Today we got our first donation to our mission.
God is good.
God is really good.
$5000 good.
That’s right 5,000 U.S. doll-hairs.
That’s 8% of our goal. After one donation, we are 8% closer to our mission in Rwanda. If that’s not the Lord continuing to confirm that we are moving in the right direction, then I don’t know what is. When I first heard the news I had to pick my jaw up off the floor and remember to breathe in through the nose and out through the mouth. We are officially 24 hours into our mission fundraising campaign and we are making significant headway. I cannot thank each and every one of you enough for your continued support and prayers. I am looking forward to talking more with each one of you about exactly how the Lord is blessing us and our ministry.
Please continue to share the good word!
Every little bit helps.

Blessings,

Jake

LIVE

Friends!!!!

Kathryn here.

We are officially live!!

We have been doing lots of behind the scenes work to get to this point and we are ecstatic to finally share with you!
We have been writing blog posts for several months, without your knowledge, so check out all those old posts! (There’s some pretty sweet stuff in there).
Our website is officially published and we are officially fundraising.
For a while, it has felt like this day would never arrive, and now that it has, it almost feels like a dream.

Honestly, I am a bundle of nerves.
I am not a great public speaker.
I do not like asking for help.
I am someone in the life battle of negative self worth.
I struggle finding myself worthy to humans and overcompensate with actions.
I must constantly remind myself of my worth in Christ.
But this journey thus far, has stretched and grown me in ways unimaginable. I am being stripped down of my fear of failure, desire of control, longing of acceptance, measuring my worthiness in actions, need of being self sufficient, and am being fully brought to my knees before Jesus.
He has brought me to a place of knowing I can’t do this on my own, I can’t do any of this without Him, and His people.
I have to rely on others.
I have to trust in His promises.
I have to ask for help, for prayer.
I have to know that God is using my “failures” for His glory.
I have to trust that He is fully in control.
I have to be confident in His calling and know that I am worthy of this calling, because He says I am.
I have to trust that He loves me, the total mess that I am.
He is equipping and growing me in ways I didn’t think I “needed”.
I have been broken down to be vulnerable before Him and before you all.
And it has been so so sweet and so so full of His abundance of kindness, faithfulness, and truth.

So here I am, full of vulnerability, asking for help.
This journey, our road to Rwanda, cannot happen without you.
We are praying for people who believe in His calling for our lives, who will support us in prayer, bring us His truth, who will love our imperfect selves, and have His heart of giving abundantly.

We are continually seeing the fruits of His goodness and can’t wait for y’all to come along side us in this next chapter of our lives.

We love y’all!!
Kathryn

Waiting

God specifically put Rwanda on our hearts in January of 2018.
If I’m being honest, back then, we though we would be there by early 2019.
But again, God has different plans, better plans. His plans are always better than ours even when waiting isn’t fun.

God has been using this time, this waiting, for so much good.
Everyday, our hearts are aligning more closely with His.
We are growing and trusting Him in ways we haven’t had to before. We are letting go of our plans, of our desires, and trusting in His timing, His promise, and His will for our lives.
We know that He is faithful and His promises are as true as His presence. We are continually shown that time and time again.

So in the mean time, we will be here.
Growing into the people He is calling us to be.
We are becoming more vulnerable, in the best of ways.
We are learning to see the abundance of beauty where He has us now.
We are striving to seek Him relentlessly with every corner of our hearts.

He is so gracious and kind to us.
He is good, so so good + we are so undeserving.

Yall are the sweetest,
Kathryn